Ok, yes, I am playing with fire... big time!
We all know I'm trying to move on in the relationship world. And I met someone that I need to run as far away from as fast as possible! But those who know me well enough know that the worse something/someone is for me the more I gravitate towards it!
This guy's nickname is Trouble.
As these things always start it was innocent. A little flirting, we play volleyball and softball together and bowl on the league team. We email at work, (he works in our admin dept) and when he's not at his desk I sneak in and leave post-its with goofy faces drawn on them. Its just nice to have someone to flirt with, and who will flirt back. Especially after the giant emotionall blows I've had, and now continue to have. (I swear, as little boys you were all taken into a room and a chip was implanted in your heads that lets you know when a significant ex is doing well!) So yes confusion continues...
One question is... How old is to old? He is 13 years older than me. A complete sweetheart, has a great smile, and I enjoy talking to him. But there are SO many reasons I need to run away! But I can't! The "safe" thing to do is not what I like to do! I feel that in the battle of love and war there is no point to it if you're not going to take risks!
I want to move on more than anything. And I have been given the oppritunity and I'm going to see where it takes me.
And besides, its probably safer for me to go out with someone I know rather than someone asking me out to dinner via myspace and there are no photos of himself. Thats a little un-nerving :-)
-Sam-
Thursday, April 23, 2009
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Have you prayed about it? I know, it sounds like a cliche, but that is the best advice I can give. Sometimes we pray about things and don't like the answer we get; other times we pray about things and ask that God respond with either A,B, or C and He'll answer with D and we don't like it. But patience is something that He continues to teach. It's all in His time. It was a long hard lesson for me to learn (and I can be stubborn), but He'll always come through.
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